When I was a little boy My mother said Watch out for the fall. But now I'm a grown woman So I know It’s better to fall than just stand still and almost all of the time you will Find your way Rise again. Stronger. Wiser. More Compassionate.
PS RuPaul som både Michelle Obama och Barack Obama. Everyone was born naked the rest is just drag:
"Femme faggot whore from hell/The body is not my temple of shame" is a singing, spoken word and stripping performance (12 minutes long) on femme-power and sex workers rights that seeks to explore the complexities of empowernment, oppression and stigmatization, challenging the black and white description of sex workers as either extremely oppressed or extremely empowered. The piece is based on personal experiences and tells a story of both strength and agency as well as weakness and vulnerability.
Premiere at Kulturhuset in Stockholm @ around 7 PM on friday! Than at Kafé 44, 18.30, march 4th and at The Berlin Femme Show in Berlin march 15th - and hopefully more dates in the future.
"of traditional attitudes, there are only two—For, or Against. I, personally, find it difficult to say which attitude causes me the most pain. I never want to compromise with complexities. Too many too often want a story that follows a simple and straight line. I have no interest in following a straight line. Do I contradict myself, very well than I have multilayers"
"Being femme means minding macho men like mines in a patriarchal battlefield I am not submissive And am not dependent upon YOU for protection The streets are my warzone I, the warrior, with glitter as my war-paint, pink as my armour and the stomping of my high heels as my battle-cry I will not accept their bullying behaviour But neither will I escalate the situation The expert of how to assert without getting hurt Cat claws out back arch. But i do not bark I will live my life and not on my broken knees"
"When you stigmatize sex workers you are not crying for us or with us you are crying straight at us Which is just a baby step from laughing at us"
"Diamanda Galas said she hustled 74th street in order to feel like she finally owned the streets Valerie Solanas said she found it funny to get money from stupid men with sex as a hang-up"
"Don't try to rescue me Every sex worker has their own story to tell Depending on position Depending on person My story is..."
Alltså, Justin Vivianne Bond är sådan viktig inspiration:
"I've spent most of my adult life asserting my transgenderness, but when I get older and may not be as strong or articulate as I am now, I don't want to be in the same position as I was in when I was a kid, you have to be hear or do this cuz you're an old man. So my body and my medical records will establish that I'm not."
"THERE YOU GO, get your passports ready, there's gonna be a new box to tick before long. Mx. for prefix and T for gender. Cuz if I say male or woman, either way I'm lieing" ♥
Och så Marlene Dietrich. Alltid påminns jag om hur underbar hon är:
"It is my hope that the more people share their personal experiences, the more society will be able to recognize such experiences as individual, and sex workers as individuals, not as some sort of monolithic group that is either empowered or oppressed.", "It is my firm belief that the sex workers’ rights movement depends on sex workers sharing their first-person experiences, whether they’re good, bad and ambivalent. Creating a climate of honesty and tolerance begins with us.", "James Baldwin writes that “of traditional attitudes, there are only two—For, or Against.” He goes on: “I, personally, find it difficult to say which attitude caused me the most pain."
Och så har jag läst ut prostitutionsdelen i Kajsa Ekis Ekmans "Varat och Varan" - jag är så arg på hur hon vinklar, förenklar, förvränger och förlöjligar en komplex debatt kring sexarbetares rättigheter. Bland annat hävdar hon att genusforskaren Gayle Rubin tycker att pedofili är revolutionärt och positivt, bara för att hon gjort en diagram över vad för sorters sex som anses vara bra och dåliga i samhället. Sedan hävdar hon också att sexpositiva använder begreppet "radikalfeminister" för att porträttera feminister som "extrema" när det ju egentligen handlar om att radikalfeminismen är en teoribildning som uppstod under andra vågens feminism. Jag är radikal och feminist, men inte radikalfeminist, då den är icke-intersektionell, ofta transfobisk, dogmatiskt emot all porr och all sexarbete etc. etc. I övrigt så svarar Laura Agustin på Kajsa Ekis Ekmans bok väldigt väl i den här artikeln: Kajsa Ekis Ekmans okunnighet om sexarbetare är skrämmande.
Ok. Ofta är det snarare frilansolyckan som jag skulle vilja ta upp. Nämligen den totala bristen på trygghetssystem, behovet av självdiscipling, att konstant sälja in sina grejer... It's fucking tiring... Och jag skulle vilja att det skapades ett system som ökade arbetstryggheten för oss som frilansar.
Det som är positivt annars med att frilansa är friheten och framförallt att en slipper ha en chef eller vara chef över någon - både rollerna har jag alltid haft väldigt svårt för.
Sedan har vi grejen med pengar. Att varje gång en ska göra någonting blir det en löneförhandling. Jag gillar inte pengar. Helst vill jag göra allt gratis, men sen så måste jag ju också kunna ha en inkomst som jag klarar mig på och sen så vill jag ha en sliding scale så att jag tar mycket betalt från stora aktörer och inte alls mycket betalt från mindre aktivistiska aktörer. Mycket att tänka på!
Men den här månaden går det bra med frilansandet! För första gången har jag en inkomst som jag utan problem klarar mig på. Det är tre föreställningar av "In Burning - In Bashing Back - In Blooming" - i Lund (Redan varit), i Malmö 13:e mars, i San Francisco 29:e mars. Det är artiklar, t.ex. en om sexuella trakasserier mot femmes i Ottar. Det är föreläsningar. Det är panelsamtal med Gudrun om queer:
Men roligast tycker jag just nu är arbetet med mitt nya performance "Femme faggot whore from hell/The body is not my temple of shame" som jag ska göra i Stockholm nästa helg (den 2:e mars på Kulturhuset och 4:e mars på Kafé 44) och i Berlin den 15:e mars och förhoppningsvis fler gånger i framtiden. Den handlar om femme och sexarbetares rättigheter och jag får sjunga. Har tagit sånglektioner och upptäckt att jag är en Countertenor, vilket bäddar för en queeraktivistisk användning av sångrösten - måste bara lära mig att kontrollera min falsettröst bättre...
Performancet berör också komplexitet och inleds med följande:
"Of traditional attitudes, there are only two—For, or Against. I, personally, find it difficult to say which attitude causes me the most pain. I never want to compromise with complexities. Too many too often want a story that follows a simple and straight line. I have no interest in following a straight line. Do I contradict myself, very well than I have multilayers"
Det är dags att sex slutar bli stigmatiserat. Vi kan och ska kritisera strukturer i mainstreamporren, men inte på sätt som stigmatiserar sex. En hollywood-komedi som är sexistisk är precis lika dålig som en sexistisk porrfilm och många filmer (Såväl porr, som icke-porr) är del av det queera och feministiska motståndet mot dessa stereotyper/roller/normer
"FUCKING CHER FUCKING AWESOME", "Working class hero fucking great fucking marianne faithfull fucking hair and heroin", "Madge the vag", "vile de cadenet and she's still vile no matter what names she drops", "EDDIE FUCKING VEDDER HAS A FUCKING SENSE OF HUMOR? SINCE WHEN? THIS IS HEADLINE NEWS!"
"we sucked donkey in la im shamed so sorrty ill make it up to you i was taking abilify and got really bad aktheshia its a side effect my mojo would NOT COME- fuck that shit id rather be drepressed, proves one thing you gotta feel to play= cos i wanted to- but the fucking non narctotic bran"
Och en artikel:
"One dog died from eating her silicon implant, another dog died from eating pills she had left around. Frances Bean's cat died when it got smothered in trash she had left around the house. However now Love denies the claim that the cat died as a result of her hoarding. "It was a fucking mountain lion that killed Peabody, and Peabody was mine not Frances"... ohhh, Courtney Love, love you and all your quirks ♥
PS Courtney Love's solo-album America's Sweetheart är fruktansvärt underskattad. Mono, Hold on to me, All the drugs, Life despite god, SUNSET STRIP (vilket har världens finaste text), samt "But Julian I'm a Little Bit Older Than You" - den sistnämnda är lite speciell för mig eftersom jag en gång hade sex med en kille som hette Julian som jag var 2 år äldre än. Jag kände mig som jag hade gjort en Courtney Love-låt, tihihi. Sååååå stolt ;-). I did a Courtney!!!:
Oh, Capitalism stop torturing me! My ambition fits you very well My scatterheart scatterbrain does quite the opposite Stop wasting your time with that stupid neurosis bordering on psychosis You can easily end this Gold glitter lipstick makes you beautiful Published books and articles makes you successful Performing on stage makes you free to be larger than life And love, Love excites you. But security threatens you and your love of doing things on your own Who ever said capitalism had anything to do with individuality It has everything to do with acceptability And self-promotion within acceptable boundaries And you, you don’t know how to spell acceptable behaviour And you, you don’t know how to do anything without over-doing it. You slut. You splurge. You climber. You are silent when you should be talking. Speak up. You are talking when you should be silent. Shut up. Even your depressions are manic.
When shit goes wrong And wrong goes bad It rots. The anger is all that remains. It is not socially acceptable to trust no one Or stare far too long at a flame For how long can it burn? I am leaving my lair Going out to bitch I see dead people Am I a criminal? I am merely killing empty photographs with my stare Am I subtle? Am I growing tall? Nothing is enough It has two meanings Born to die Born to live Ease myself into a bubble bath Ease myself into a body bag More flowers Less poison You can not just chew up all the shit in the world, swallow it down and than shit it out just the same. Why do you hold on to your hate as if it was the last thing you had left?
Spoiled Brat! Greedy Bitch! You are not the victim! The sons, the daughters may have hated you Teased you Kicked you Scratched you But The teachers The mothers They praised you and your level of gift and talent Nobody could match you. So now you must always be the best It robs you of your worth! You are not living up to your potential. Get your foot out of your ass Dumbass do not put it in your door By morning you shall inherit the earth. Stop walking a line of complexities Everyone thinks you are contradicting yourself. Save face. Walk straight.
BUT I HAVE NO INTEREST IN WALKING A STRAIGHT LINE. I have only an interest in mocking that path That one-way street. The simple road to success I never want to compromise with complexities I have multi-layers I am not a conservative politician comprised of gay porn There is nothing I want to hide. Nothing I don’t want to try. The mask of restraint has fallen off It has shattered. Realness does not mix well with reality. Do. Not. Let. It. Kill. You.
This life will not be confined by your pre-defined measurements of success Fail and Fail and Fail again What a character you will build. What a rocky road you will travel. What a roller-coaster. What a flame. What a waterfall. Surviving Niagara. To Paradise.
Porträtt av Rick Santorum, amerikansk republikansk politiker som är abortmotståndare och mot alla former av hbtq-rättigheter. Porträttet består enbart av bögporr-bilder =). Jag har alltid misstänkt att konservativa politiker egentligen bara består av bögporr. SÅ: Ut ur garderoben och ut ur våra liv! TACK!
Ikväll ska jag vara med i ett panelsamtal om queer i Simrishamn med bl.a. Gudrun Schyman. Ska bli kul.
Och här har vi ett citat från en av mina stora idoler:
”I’m my own manager, my own pretty much everything. I can’t explain why that is, but I like that self-reliance. I don’t want to sleep with a guy every night, I don’t want him in my bed every night.”
And: Sylvia Plath you do know how write so it burns through the paper and you are teaching me to do the same and we've rid ourselves of Daddy, haven't we?: "Holding in its hate//I am no criminal//I am killing a photograph//As it blackens, I grow tall//And I am not subtle". Sylvia, Audre Lorde, Elfriede Jelinek, Arundhati Roy and Anne "An awful rowing towards god" Sexton are my favorite wonderous witches of writing ♥
Jag ska köra "In Burning - In Bashing Back - In Blooming" på Smålands i Lund ikväll kl. 19. Och jag är även mycket glad över att jag blivit bokad till sexdagarna i Malmö den 13:e mars kl. 16 på Malmö Högskola, samt San Francisco den 29:e mars kl. 19 på Center for Sex and Culture:
Extra mycket ser jag framemot att sjunga "Tears dry on their own" - den har förvandlats från en imitation av Amy Winehouse till en helt utvecklad cover. Den andra versen är ren och skär ilska. Jag har alltid tyckt att låten är en fantastisk blandning ilska, sorg, ånger, självkritik, självstärkande, självständighet, hopp, harmoni och sist men inte minst LYCKA ♥
PS Kör ny performance "Femme faggot whore from hell/The body is not my temple of shame" (12 minuter) i Stockholm 2:e och 4:e mars, samt Berlin 15:e mars. SkojSkoj!
"I am a poly queer femmegimp porn star academic doing a PhD at York University. My work is a synthesis of theoretical engagement and critical artistic creation, both of which are motivated and shaped by personal experience and activist ideals. I want to replace the gawking, gazing, and glaring people with disabilities encounter on a daily basis with beholding, recognizing, and reacting when people with disabilities are red fucking hot." - Loree Erickson
"I wouldn't be making porn right now if I weren't so pissed off. I would not be making porn if I hadn't struggled for most of my life to be recognized as a sexy and sexual being, or if the world weren't so fucked up. But making porn is one of the best things I've ever done." (Erickson, 2010)
Min poäng är följande: Som med all film så finns det porrfilm som är subversivt och progressivt och feministiskt och queer och trotsar förtryckande normer, och så finns det porr som är raka motsatsen och som bör kritiseras. MEN jag tänker inte kritisera en porrfilm som återproducerar patriarkala strukturer mer än vad jag kritiserar en patriarkal hollywood-komedi. Det handlar om att vi måste bort från ett samhälle som stigmatiserar sex och om att vi måste prata om normkritisk pornografi som något som kan vara en fantastisk del av ens sexualitet och en fantastisk del av revolutionen i stort! Heja Queerporr!
(Och ja, det är ett problem att artikelförfattaren använder ordet "vi" i rubriken, för det kommer med ett antagande om att det inte är "fattiga människor" som läser artikeln)
Och här en kommentar från Elfriede Jelinek... Eller jag menar Hanna Widerstedt, förstås!:
”För mig är en person som är värdig en person som är rik, chefsposition för ett stort företag, snygg, smal. Ja, det är en perfekt person enligt. Och för mig är de här personerna som inte tjänar bra pengar dom är läskiga och jag tycker det är obehagligt att vara nära en sån. T.ex. om jag sitter på bussen och det kommer någon människa och sätter sig bredvid mig så tycker jag det är obehagligt för jag vet inte om personen är fattig eller rik. Så jag tycker det är obehagligt att åka buss.”
Eller rättare sagt en karaktär skapad av Elfriede Jelinek. Jag kom äntligen på det idag när jag läste den här artikeln. Språkbruket avslöjar henne, det är identiskt till den i flera av Jelineks romaner. Nedanstående känns som ett citat från en Jelinekroman och då Jelinek har en tämligen unik stil, så betyder detta alltså att det måste vara Jelinek själv som har skrivit det. Hanna Widerstedt är helt enkelt ett nytt utslag av genialiskt satir från Elfriede Jelinek!!!!:
"Istället för att sitta där och vänta på att dö – ut och jobba istället! Gör något av era liv! Jag själv kommer jobba tills jag bokstavligt ligger i graven, vill ha in så mycket pengar som möjligt. Sen har jag ju väldigt stora omkostnader… Alla mina väskor. Kommer att göra storbeställningar på Chanel, Louis Vuitton och Prada under detta år, like it or not!"
PS: What does too intense mean? Reducing things to half of what they could be? Reducing yourself to half of what you could be? No thank you... I'll live with the critique and remember Janis Joplin "Don't compromise yourself, you're all you've got" - we will inherit a magical world where the sky is the limit.
PS 2: I ♥ books/words/writing/reading, I ♥ music, I ♥ and/or have feelings for a certain amount of people, I ♥ spending a sufficient amount of time alone, I ♥ it all non monogamously, I ♥ following my own path, I ♥ being married to the revolution and using writing, performance, speaking, organizing etc. as revolutionary tools. I get easily bored with cynicism and bitterness, although it too can be a sharp political tool if pointed well.
PS 3: “Honey, I know neurotic. You’re not neurotic. These artistic writer neuroses are all affectation. Your only issue is you crave being doted on. You only exist when people feed your ego. When people praise your looks and brains and power. As soon as you get your head out of your ass, you will be as famous and brilliant as you want to be.” (We should all remind ourselves of this, especially artists and writers... I know I have to remind myself of this. We are not the centers of the universe, nope, not even in our angsty neurotic anxieties, tihihi).
”The moment I imagine my suffering as something that’s never been experienced by someone else, I become boring”
Så. Var det Alla Hjärtans Dag! Jag tillbringar dagen på biblioteket och på sånglektion. Jag älskar böcker (och passar på att läsa lite Elfriede Jelinek dagen till ära!). Jag älskar musik. Två av mina livs stora kärleker. Icke-monogamt. Ord. Musik. Och att förvandla dem till revolutionär politik också genom performances.
Slutmålet är revolution, men delmålet är att få spela Evita i en all drag och trans-uppsättning av musikalen - 2019 när Evita skulle ha fyllt 100. En dröm jag haft sen jag var 9! (Egentligen ville jag ju BLI Evita, men sen insåg jag att det går emot anarkismen och dess principer om inga ledare. I wish never to lead or be led!=koppla gärna det alla hjärtans dag!!):
PS I fredags var jag med och vann en quiz för första gången tack vare att alla frågorna var kring olika riot grrrl-kändisar. Äntligen fick jag utdelning för min nördkunskap på området!
PS 2 Roligt:
PS 3 Men allvarligt talat:
We shall by morning inherit the earth. Our foot is in the door.
I'm working on this performance called "Femme faggot whore from hell/The body is not my temple of shame" - first I wanted to call it spoken word burlesque and than i understood the only reason i used burlesque instead of strip was cuz the word burlesque often is considered more acceptable for classist and bourgeouise reasons (I know I know, sometimes there are also other reasons for using the word burlesque), so i opted for spoken word striptease and than speak'n'strip which than morphed into speak'n'streak.
"I'm gonna spend the rest of my life researching to see if I'm related to a Salem witch - probably"
Another beautiful multi-dimensional song by Lana Del Rey/Elizabeth Grant, that I totally can relate to. I've always been more committed to freedom/independence than to a partnership. There is a huge bittersweetness to it, because it doesn't make life secure and easy: "That's what happens when you're on your own and you're alright with letting nice things go... In the name of higher consciousness I let the best man I knew go, cuz it's nice to love and be loved but it's better to know what you can know. I said it's nice to love and be loved but I'd rather know what god knows" Pawn Shop Blues:
One of the reasons I love Lana so much is that she tells multi-dimensional stories in her songs. I'm so tired of one-dimensionalism. Reality is not one-dimensional it is complex. And for those detractors who say that Lana "first tried to be a pop princess and than tried to be more indie" - this is the type of music she was making before she got famous and I do believe she has stayed true to her vision and evolved that vision like all artists do.
Sylvia Plath, Alexander McQueen och Whitney Houston dog. Sarah Palin och Jeb Bush föddes. Margaret Thatcher valdes till partiledare. Emma Goldman sattes i fängelse.
Idag är det 49 år sedan Sylvia Plath valde ett abrupt slut på sitt liv genom att stoppa huvudet i ugnen. R.I.P. "Even amidst fierce flames the Golden Lotus can be planted" ♥
Filmen som inleds med följande citat, som berättar om gåvan och faran med att ha driv, ambition och en stark vilja - en vilja att göra så mycket med sitt liv som bara är möjligt:
"I saw my life branching out before me like the green fig tree in the story. From the tip of every branch, like a fat purple fig, a wonderful future beckoned and winked. One fig was a husband and a happy home and children, and another fig was a famous poet and another fig was a brilliant professor, and another fig was Ee Gee, the amazing editor, and another fig was Europe and Africa and South America, and another fig was Constantin and Socrates and Attila and a pack of other lovers with queer names and offbeat professions, and another fig was an Olympic lady crew champion, and beyond and above these figs were many more figs I couldn't quite make out. I saw myself sitting in the crotch of this fig tree, starving to death, just because I couldn't make up my mind which of the figs I would choose. I wanted each and every one of them, but choosing one meant losing all the rest, and, as I sat there, unable to decide, the figs began to wrinkle and go black, and, one by one, they plopped to the ground at my feet.” - Sylvia Plath i "The Bell Jar"
“That’s one of the reasons I never wanted to get married. The last thing I wanted was infinite security and to be the place an arrow shoots off from. I wanted change and excitement and to shoot off in all directions myself, like the colored arrows from a Fourth of July rocket.”
"The trouble was, I hated the idea of serving men in any way. I wanted to dictate my own thrilling letters.”
"Does not my heat astound you and my light? All by myself I am a huge camelia, glowing and coming and going. Flush on Flush. I think I am going up. I think I may rise."
"I think that personal experience is very important, but certainly it shouldn't be a kind of shut box and sort of mirror-looking narcissistic experience, I believe it should be relevant and relevant to the larger things, the bigger things, such as Hiroshima and Dachau and so on".
SYLVIA PLATH du betyder, har alltid betytt, sedan jag läste en av dina dikter för första gången när jag var 9, och kommer alltid att betyda så himla mycket för mig. Önskar att du funnit en annan väg än att avsluta livet, men vad du gjorde med ditt 30-åriga liv kommer alltid finnas med mig.
"Too many guys think I'm a concept, or I complete them, or I'm gonna make them alive. But I'm just a fucked-up girl who's lookin' for my own peace of mind; don't assign me yours."
"It’s freeing to know that we have to FIGHT to make great work and a great life and a great death and leave a great legacy and have a good mission, to achieve excellence, a deep deep human revolution, and that art, like life, is WAR."
- Courtney Love
Femme Faggot Whore From Hell/The Body is Not my Temple of Shame - Spoken Word/Speak'n'strip/speak'n'streak - Om femme och sexarbetares rättigheter, samt om mina personliga erfarenheter kring hur sexarbete både kan vara en positiv, helande och stärkande erfarenhet och/eller en negativ och destruktiv erfarenhet, beroende på vem det är som gör det, positions- och erfarenhetsmässigt, och vilken form av sexarbete det är - men att stigmatisering och viktimisering av sexarbetare är djupt problematiskt, för att formulera det diplomatiskt ;-).
2:e mars - Stockholm, Kulturhuset 15:e mars - Berlin, Femme Show
Förhoppningsvis fler datum i framtiden. Kontakta mig om ni vill boka-boka!
Apparently M.I.A. gave the finger at the super bowl half-time show. Apparently this is a big controversy. What so say, USA... I love you M.I.A., it was painful to see you as Madonna's head-cheerleader at the super bowl of all shit places, but you made the best of it of course ♥ "Live fast die young bad girls do it well" on REPEAT ♥
AND I absolutely love this!!! DIVA DELUXE, and the boy dancers sway their hips like no tomorrow and turn into leather gays with pink shawls at the end ♥ In one part the guys act stupid and masculine and she just looks extremely annoyed.
PS 1
PS 2: Så jäääääävla bra, dom driver med dom som driver med henne
"No serious musician would ever change their name, except for maybe Sting, Cher, Elton John, Jay-Z, everyone else in hip-hop and of course Bob Dylan", "In this age of dangerous school bullying you have sent an important message, if you think someone is weird you should criticize them as much as possible".
I must post this, cuz I wanna show once again that amongst all her CRAZIES this woman is FUCKING BRILLIANT:
"It’s freeing to know that we have to FIGHT to make great work and a great life and a great death and leave a great legacy and have a good mission, to achieve excellence, a deep deep human revolution, and that art, like life, is WAR."
- Courtney Love
(Although life is not always war... Art however is another story, tihihi)
Till exempel dags för fler av oss med svenskt medborgarskap att ingå äktenskap för se till att människor får uppehållstillstånd! En av tusen saker som vi måste göra. Motstånd överallt! Vi gör det!
IN BURNING - IN BASHING BACK - IN BLOOMING - A SPOKEN WORD AND PERFORMANCE ART-MUSICAL BY ALEXANDER ALVINA CHAMBERLAND
”Those who have suffered understand suffering and thereby extend their hand, the storm which brings harm also makes the grass grow fertile” – Patti Smith
”Sometimes all reflective human beings struggle with feelings of emptiness and everything being meaningless. Does the realization of deep oppression and all the darkness in the world require suicide? No, it requires revolt!” – Quote from the play
A personal account on processing being raped in a society that says it will ruin your life and regaining – and gaining new – strength. Through yourself, through support, through solidarity, through SCREAMING, through activism. Riot Grrrl meets queerfemme-inist performance art meets dark musical. Featuring music by Bikini Kill, PJ Harvey, Le Tigre, Hole, Christina Aguilera, TLC, Nina Simone, Diamanda Galas, L7, Amy Winehouse and CocoRosie. The production is 70 minutes long and is in English. Co-director Angie Negin Rad. Photo: Idios.
* trigger warning since the play features the reenactment of a sexual assault
ABOUT THE PERFORMER:
Alexander Alvina Chamberland is 25 years old and lives in Sweden, but is born and raised in San Francisco, California. Alexander is an anarchist and queerfeminist leftist-activist, poet, performance artist and writer. They completed their bachelor in gender studies at Lunds University in the spring of 2011.
Alexander is co-founder of The Queertopia Festival and has had article’s publicized in many of Sweden’s largets newspapers (DN, Aftonbladet, Svenska Dagbladet, Göteborgs Posten and Sydsvenska Dagbladet etc) and has taken part in tv- and radio-programs like Lantz i P1, the sex show Ligga med P3, Studio Ett, Generation Z, SVT Debatt, Aktuellt and SVT:s morning program, where they once arrived dressed as a Black Swan. They have performed in Berlin, San Francisco, Malmö, Toronto, Copenhagen, Stockholm and Amsterdam.
En anna bra grej är Femme-zinen "Dressed Like That" i Berlin, som jag har varit med och skrivit i. Den går att läsa på internet nu, häääär. Och den 15:e mars är det release-fest för den hel-tyska och den hel-engelska versionen. Då blir det performance-fest och jag ska köra ett performance som heter "Femme faggot whore from hell/The body is not my temple of shame". Kör den även i Stockholm den 2:e mars på Kulturhuset. Kul-Kul!!
I’ve been thinking alot about this song lately. The past year it has felt like assholes have been trying to set some sort of record in sexually harassing me in different situations and it has taken me a long time to fully analyze and politicize what it is about, feminininity, masculinity, slut-shaming, slut=consent is not necessary, taking up space etc. etc. And this song: ”Respect is just a minimum”, ”And you wonder why women hate men” and the battle against cynicism ”Don’t be a hard rock, when you really are a gem”. Sometimes it feels like the only alternative to victimization is cynicism, but it isn’t. The only alternative to cynicism is RESISTANCE.
RESISTANCE a word I can't say without getting giddy like a school girl who see's Justin Bieber IRL. And it's 2012 and we are rising and resisting on an all levels individually turning into collectively #MoscowEgyptOccupyRevolutionIt'sAllGottaChangeIt'sAllGonnaChange
2012 is the revolution (M.I.A. could do the whole soundtrack for it!) not the apocalypse, but if it was here is the soundtrack: Born to Die & National Anthem - Lana del Rey, Bittersweet Symphony - The Verve, Where is my mind - The Pixies, I wanna know what love is - Julie Ruin, Atrocities - Antony & The Johnsons The Last Living Rose - PJ Harvey, The Greatest - Cat Power, Fever 103 - Sylvia Plath.
Singing along to this song when I was 12 is my first memory of actively understanding that my gender identity didn't fit with my assigned gender. So everytime I hear it I feel a strange mixture of liberation and anxiety. Mostly liberation ♥ Sure it's a stupid pop song, BUT Meow!
But really, seeing this movie was a true life-changer ♥ Magical Revolution. The revolution IS magical. This movie awakens, empowers and makes you FEEL and most of all FEEL ALIVE!!! GAAAH ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
Because these moments of magic are to be felt and savoured. The beauty of finding a new deep-level connection is so innocent and so raw - it floors me everytime and has me skipping home filled with endorphins that I know can and will last me through a full life-time ♥. Darkness NEVER beats that. =I'm talking bout all types of connections whether physical attraction is involved or not. They are all of equal worth to me. ♥
Nu har Lana Del Rey släppt sitt nya album. Den är himla bra. Gillar framförallt Born to die, Off to the races, National Anthem, Carmen, Summertime Sadness och inledningen till "Without You": "Everything I want I have, money, notoriety and rivieras, I even think I found god in the flash bulbs of the pretty cameras"
"He loves me the way I roll like a rolling stone" "In fact he says it's what he may like about me, the way that I do everything on my own"
The Art of rising from the ashes like the Phoenix. It is one of the most beautiful experiences in the human existence. Our tragedies, our scars, our smoldering wreckage, our disentitlement. To Live Through This and Never Go Hungry Again - We Will Rise.
Do not mess with the love of the tiger mother!!!
I lördags var det en person som sa "jag trodde att du var celibatbög eftersom du hatade män" - roligaste grejen jag fått höra på länge ;-) Jag var tvungen att ha sex med en kille den kvällen bara för att motbevisa. Och det gjorde jag. Det intressanta var att han hade exakt samma födelsedatum (17e oktober 1989) som personen som jag har känslor för i Oakland har... Jag är inte en sån som tror på tecken, men... åhh. Det var ett tag sedan jag kände den här typen av saknad för en kille. Om 7 veckor ses vi igen och vi får se vad som utvecklas ur vår connection.
PS Jag hatar inte alla män, när jag någon gång kläckt ur mig "jag hatar män" så menar jag det metaforiskt. Men ja, det är sällan jag connectar med vita straighta cis-snubbar.
PS 2: Den här videon får mig att längta så efter APRIL och New York, walking the city streets by the riverside all night, riding the subway all night - writing, writing, writing. #total dedication to politics and creativity & creative politics.
"I chose to go there cuz I knew it would be a huge shake up in my own life and for my writing", "It gave me a huge injection of energy and a great feeling of capability and strength personally which than translated into writing", "It doesn't ever stop so all the usual routines and structures we follow get blown out of the window - from that such new things come out", "Ice queen, daughter of darkness, strapping rock'n'roll amazon, man-hating axe-wielding cow from hell"
"Liknande fläckar av en ”revolution inom revolutionen” breder ut sig överallt. I Brasilien och Paraguay driver jordockupanter hela samhällen efter kommunitära, direktdemokratiska principer. I Venezuela och Argentina sköter radikala folkrörelser daghem, skolor och högskolor enligt Freires ”befrielsepedagogik”, under egen kontroll men med statliga resurser. Venezuela har infört arbetardemokrati i ett elbolag med 10 000 anställda, med vald chef och råd bland de anställda."
Some asshole posted this as a comment to something I'd written on trans-issues. Is this supposed to be clever? Over-simplified anyone? Yes, we live in a patriarchal society, but we also live in a racist, heterosexist, transphobic, ableist, classist society etc. Get that into your head and understand that some women do experience priviledge, lots of it, especially if you are white, heterosexual, cis, able-bodied, middle/upper class etc. etc. And yes cis-priviledge does exist just as white priviledge, straight priviledge, male priviledge etc - work on it instead of using a one-sided victimization rhetoric.
And than I made the mistake of reading the full blog and the comments (click on the link to see a bigger version of the picture I linked - I don't quite know how). It turned my anger ratio for the day into overdrive. It contains everything that makes me understand that I have more common with some non-feminists than with these 2nd wave radfeminists: Extreme transphobia, complete disregard of racism, against all porn, anti-BDSM, stigmatizing sex workers, no class analysis - everything boils down to cis-women being the most oppressed in all situations. I'm like all "Feminists unite" and than I read this type of shit and I'm like WAIT, I don't wanna be near these arrogant and ignorant people, whether they define themselves as feminists or not..
Or as Samantha comments on the blog:
"Trans people face discrimination, and possibility of violence, death, alienation etc. every day. Yes, cis women and men are sort of trapped into gender boxes, but so are trans people. Not only that, but they then have to break out of that box and not only deal with facing the things expected of them because of their gender, but have to deal with that in even more extremes in some cases to “pass.” Just because someone is female does not mean they are not privileged for being cis. Think of all the shit that trans people (women and men) have to deal with that cis people (women and especially men) do not. Also: Trans women are women. You think that womanhood is really only defined by genitalia and sex organs? You’re just going to ignore all the trans women who hated going through puberty? Who killed themselves or were killed because people wouldn’t accept their gender? Also, it’s great how people are complaining about trans people “defining female” while at the same time trying to define what being female is in order to exclude trans people."
This shouldn't be so fucking hard to understand and embrace:
The issue is a bit complex and I am not entirely anti-victim, but I have a critical stance to it. When it comes to other people victimizing somebody/a group it is degrading and leaves them with barely any agency. When it comes to victimizing ones self it's a bit more tricky - i'd rarely recommend anybody to tell somebody else to stop victimizing themself, however in general, when somebody is constantly victimizing themself I take it as a warning signal. Victimization can be legitimate but it can also be used by some people as an excuse for manipulation and not being held accountable for their actions. I've seen this happen many times. And to be honest never was I such an asshole as I was in the 6 months after being raped, because I thought I had the right to be an asshole. I didn't and I'm glad I figured that out and seriously, with all love and respect, for your own and everybody's sake it's better to strive towards being a survivor and not a victim, even if it's not always easy - and I am well aware that I am speaking both from positions of priviledge and positions of oppression and I know that I can't say anything about any individuals processing of oppressive bullshit. I'm talking on a structural level.