Pussy Riot, panic attacks, Clarice Lispector, Life-coaches, Veronika decides to die and Fiona

"When I start to be savvy, then they’ve gotten me. I would venture to say that I’m more courageous than the ones who are savvy, and stronger than them, too, because I don’t need to protect myself. I can say personal things. The things that are hard for me in my life don’t become harder because somebody else knows about them." - Fiona Apple (plus sharing your personal story with somebody else helps them out in their struggle - why are we so afraid?)

‘To be nobody but yourself- in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else- means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight; and never stop fighting.’
-E.E. Cummings

I still only travel by foot and by foot it's a slow climb but I'm good at being uncomfortable so I can't stop changing all the time. I notice that my opponent is always on the go and won't go slow so's not to focus and I notice, he'll hitch a ride with any guide as long as they go fast from whence he came, but he's no good at being uncomfortable so he can't stop staying exactly the same. Give us something familiar, something similar, to what we know already, that will keep us steady...steady...steady...steady...Steady going nowhere

My heart's made of parts of all that's around me and that's why the devil just can't get around me - For Eight Straight (errr... Queer...) years you've reminded me how to feel everything but still stay alive. In ten days I'm gonna shake your hand, give you a little note and a little draft of the first chapter of something that may just be something special ♥ "My scars were reflecting the mist in your headlights"

Ok - Describing a panic attack - I'm obviously not having one right now, because than I wouldn't be writing this - it feels like your soul is this large bird and it is trapped inside your body and it flutters around frenetically crashing into everything - sometimes you attack your own flesh hoping it will help free it - and I do regard the fact that we usually manage to calm it down as one of life's true miracles. One day the courage and strength it takes to feel that much darkness, that bird that lives inside us with it's crooked feathers is the very thing that ables us to SOAR and TAKE FLIGHT and FEEL EMPATHY and CHANGE THE WORLD ♥

Fantastic interview about Pussy Riot with Kathleen Hanna.

"To eat communion bread will be to taste the world's indifference, and to immerse myself in nothingness.. And now -- now it only remains for me to light a cigarette and go home. Dear God, only now am I remembering that people die. Does that include me? Don't forget, in the meantime, that this is the season for strawberries. Yes" - Clarice Lispector

"I write and that way rid myself of me and then at last I can rest... Meanwhile, the clouds are white and the sky is blue. Why is there so much God at the expense of human?” - Clarice Lispector

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And that’s when I decided – the piano has been playing me passionately for years and it’s time I returned the favor and learned how to play them back. Playing out the emotions.

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So Self-Help and Capitalism ;-)... Someone yells "Help, I'm Drowning" and instead of saving them, the person on the shore says "My life-coach told me that it's important that I learn how to say No, so I'm gonna say it now: No". Today's big laugh ;-)...

PS Somebody has put a leather pride-flag sticker on the door to the hotel room where Valerie Solanas died.

PS 2 Yesterday was my birthday When it comes to presents I want nothing material, just time and creativity OR even better donate money to for example an organization working grassroots with refugees rights or other important organizations (Preferably smaller ones instead of big ones). In Sweden for example asylgruppen Malmö: Plusgiro 596851-6, No Human is Illegal Stockholm: Plusgiro 47 25 43-8